Let me tell the truth.

I faked schizophrenia to get outta ROTC because I judged my abusive, narcissistic father’s wrath to be more of a threat than the United States Military.

I also tried really hard to meet anyone of any walk of life being VERY LOUD on Craigslist for a couple years after, the most egregious thing I did being chatting with a fifteen year old on Facebook when I was twenty-two until her mom found out and got scared.

I do not know the true nature of my life at present. It certainly FEELS like I was trained in writing and performance art to be an authentic, unhinged neurodivergent person in a highly peculiar manner with mountains of plausible deniability on the end of whomever caused the events of my book, and thus I THINK I was trained how to stare at goats by the military industrial complex and they continue to fuck with me so I may report on it in true gonzo fashion, as I am so naturally counterintelligent, and all I can say is that I am grateful beyond measure, for I WAS broken and now I am not.

But, given the defects of the human psychology, I can be completely and totally honest about EVERYTHING in my story, and present thing information in any number of ways, and a significant portion of the population AUTOMATICALLY dismisses me, for reasons I stated in propaganda, I believe, a day and a half ago, regarding dazzle camouflage.

And still it amazes me, because while there are many people that do not understand me, a good portion of people can at least understand that I DELIBERATELY be a dense moron on the internet BECAUSE there are people who you can tell them you are a troll completely and totally seriously with all the evidence at your disposal, and they will ASSERT themselves as a proctor of mental health - often in a cruel and undignified manner - and just go on repeat, telling you to take meds and see a doctor and yadda yadda, because THEY are the out of control animals/children that need a little extra help.

Because that’s the thing; I AM a skilled righter and performance artist playing a completely authentic, autobiographical character for a few reasons. One of which, is to promote my educational (f)art project which is designed to market and facilitate education in philosophy, spirituality, and mental health skills to help people heal n self-actualize. Another is, is to be a punching bag, as Jesus was.

I mean, if you saw a man who flipped tables and cracked whips - meaning they caused a disturbance and was very snappy with their wit - would your instinct be to attack and stab with a spear and all this other cruelness? No! You’re a good person! You wouldn’t be cruel! But all these fools who know not what they do, they oust themselves as horrible people, spitting venom and getting off on dominating a person they feel is weak and helpless and less than them.

They sure fuck themselves, not knowing that the New Testament describes a decentralized autonomous organization of secret police at an eighth grade reading level. Shit, it’s like we ENGINEERED our culture to CONTROL those people who cannot think for themselves whilst simultaneously guiding those waking up to the matrix into the occult, which is a word that just means “hidden.”

But I’m just some guy who used to masturbate in his window. Just ignore me, the pariah who DESERVES to be attacked. Go ahead, listen to that voice telling you to be mean and cruel and awful! Surely the wise of the world haven’t perceived n undone the karmic fetters that bound them to the existence-illusion complex to be ABLE to choose to be a fool, CONSCIOUSLY, as a trap for the foolish and evil, so when they try their actual shit, they’ve already been defeated by their own actions.

  • Broadfern@lemmy.worldEnglish
    4·
    12 days ago

    This post is certainly a wild ride and I’m not sure my reading comprehension is strong enough to parse it all.

    That said, as long as you’re at (relative) peace then more power to you, OP.

    Universe knows trying to make sense of this fucked up hellscape of a timeline we’re on is futile anyhow, so may as well have fun with it.

    Realizing we’re talking monkeys evolved from basically microbial life millions of years ago makes you feel like the world’s problems are even more absurd.

    TL;DR: No judgment. Good vibes your way, fellow human. /gen

    • Impractical_Island@lemmy.worldOP
      31·
      12 days ago

      I AM a wild ride, but, like, in a platonic, metaphorical sense.

      I have a post about how reality is procedurally generated, the most concise way to explain would be to say “simulation” and leave it at that. Would you be interested in reading that?

      I appreciate your will to align with radical acceptance. I am a spoony bard, I think. I’ve never looked that one up. I’m really good at knowing the function of a word, not the definition, so I’m innately good at noncing, which is a linguistics term, not the British slang.

      It IS rather strange, the majesty and magnitude of it all. Turtles all the way UP, if you’re familiar with that metaphor (metaphysically, everything is on the back of a turtle; causation - but reversed; retrocausality!

  • Impractical_Island@lemmy.worldOP
    15·
    12 days ago

    See you people downvoting don’t understand I’m literally Jesus and you’re going to hell for that. And likely most people who see will think I’m serious about the previous sentence. Nah man, my Dad’s cool as heck! He’ll only send you to hell for, like, one or two lifetimes. Unless you did something bad. Like get Mother Mary pregnant without her consent. She was fifteen when she had Jesus, if you didn’t know, and it was as fucky then as it is now, so you might wonder why the Bible is written that way. It’s like it’s cleverly written for kids AND adults, in a coming of age sort of way.

    For clarification. North Star is a symbol. Moral maxim. Following the North Star is “doing the right thing.” One of the wise men is Jesus’ dad, and Joseph didn’t love him, like Moses’ parents, hence he became a pariah and that is what the Illuminati uses for their culture machine of their police state.