I’ve been on HRT for about 4.5 years now, and I still don’t really feel any better, I’m still very depressed and dystphoric. I know I dont put a ton of effort in, but when I for help cultivating an aesthetic, people tell me to go on tiktok, or just Google it, I suffer a lot as a result cause due to my ADHD I just can’t pay attention or I dont do anything and I just keep suffering, I’ve honestly considered just ending it since my dysphoria has been strong and consistent my entire life. I’m just tired, I want help but I just feel alone in this journey since I can’t just google it, or look it up on tiktok. I feel like I’m a hopeless person and I’m honestly annoying to the trans community and huge part of transphobia